Tired

I never knew how tired I could get and still function. I used to sleep 8 - 10 hours a night. I could easily spend the whole day in bed sleeping, reading, sleeping, eating, sleeping... Sleeping was something I excelled at. Now, I'm lucky if I get 5 or 6 hours a night. And those are interrupted! It has been exactly 14 months and 1 day since I had a full nights sleep. Odd how that is exactly how long ago my son was born ;-) I love him so much but I so wish he would just sleep! I wish I could explain to him how much better a mommy I could be if I wasn't so tired all the time. I feel so guilty for not having more energy but don't know where to get it. There's always so much to do around this house yet I am napping every time I can. Sleep seems to be constantly on my mind. Sometimes, I just want to cry from being so tired. Yet, I seem to keep moving on...diapers get changed, baby gets fed and played with, we go out and about most days of the week. I feel bad if Sam spends the day at home - bad enough he has to just sit in the living room and play while I work - it would be too boring if he had to do that during the morning and early afternoon too. How to balance everything? Sam, Sleep, housework, money work, husband time, me time(?!) Not enough hours in the day, not enough energy in me. How much longer???? When does balance return????